CONTENT WARNING:brief mention of suicide
themes of jealousy, loneliness, and isolation
specter girl ………….………. x
༄.° if nobody hears you, are you really around? ༄.°
- �������, he she, 19
- I probably have ADHD and BPD but I have a job so Idrc about that rn /ref
- avid collector of vinyl records, among other things
- follow me for stupid rants about my life Ig
🪦 Display Persona:
🪦 Last Seen Listening To:
Anti-Social Butterfly by Settle Your Scores
🪦 Latest Journal Entries:
Last updated: ��/��/����omfg bro I’m so tired of being the floater friend literally everybody I know has someone they like more than me. I’m only ever acknowledged when everyone else people would rather talk to are busy and every time I hang around my friends I feel genuinely miserable and it’s not even because of anything they did, it’s because of everything they AREN’T doing. it’s like they completely forget I’m even there! I just fade into the background so easily like I’m a ghost and nobody can actually see me but I’M HERE TOO!!! I’M IMPORTANT TOO!!!!!! every time I try to input literally ANYTHING to ANY conversation I get ignored or talked over or brushed off! it’s almost laughable how out of place I feel no matter where I go, I never know when to insert myself so I just gave up on trying. so many friends to surround myself with but none of them actually KNOW me let alone genuinely care about me, I’m just waiting for the day they all forget I exist. honestly I seriously doubt anyone would even notice if I killed myself tonight lol 🤍…………………………………………………………………………. - �������
CONTENT WARNING:implications of abuse
repression of emotions
Padlock Girl ……….………. x
⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ Hold it in and keep it tight, smile honey, it’s alright ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆
- �������� ~
- She/they
- Honorary horse girl. Ask me for photos of my horse
- Lover of all things cute 💛
ꄗꗃ Display Persona:
ꄗꗃ Last Seen Listening To:
A Pearl by Mitski
ꄗꗃ Latest Journal Entries:
Last updated: ��/��/����Good evening… I feel really guilty. I know that my friends have noticed I’ve been down lately, they’ve been asking me about if I’m okay and telling me that I can talk to them if I need it. And I do need it, I’ve been getting so much worse as of late. But every time I try to say what’s wrong, the words I want to say jumble up and all that I can manage is that I’m fine, or I’m just tired. I’ve rehearsed what to say to get comfort a million times in my head but when it comes to the time to ask for it I just. Can’t. Say it. And it’s horrible. I want to say it. I want to tell them what happened, what They did to me, but I’m afraid to say anything about it. And it’s about the little things too, I can’t even communicate that I’ve had a bad day anymore, it’s like the only words I know are “I’m okay”. I know my friends would help me, they’re good people, they wouldn’t get mad if I told them they’ve said something that made me uncomfortable or that something bad happened to me, but I can’t. My throat just closes up and I can barely find the words to describe how I’m feeling anyway. I don’t want to live confined to silence like this anymore. Ugh 💔……………………………………………………………………….. - ��������